AN ESCAPE FROM REALITY;

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Sometimes, pretence seems to be my mask
The mask i wore to deceive everyone
To convince people, &make them believe
On the outside, i'm okay &i'm having fun

Sometimes, lying seems to be my speech
Every single word i said, are fake
Every tue feelings bottled up inside of me
Cos right now, i've no true friends to take

Sometimes, there's a stranger in the mirror
Even myself, can't recognise who's that
That reflection's acting so strangely
Wait, she even look fat

I'm pretending, every single second
Even right now, when i'm typing this
My face's smiling, my heart's bleeding
Too fake, that's why i'm pissed

Poem dated back: 8 June 2008

another sweetest escape
10:48 PM

Monday, June 9, 2008

______ oh ______
I do feel for you
You're the reason why
Pathetic i feel

'Cos it just seems as though
This is a bottomless pit
I can't stop it, now help it
My feelings, it all eat

I feel so though
I'm being torn apart
Nth left alive
Bleeding is my heart

Yet no, it's not your fault
For it's me &my foolishness
That causes troubles
&this confusion

I guess it's me
For being oh-so-stupid
Catching the wrong signals
I'm such a twit

I know you don't feel
At least not the way i feel
But i hope you still know
My feelings are all real

Here i'm yearning
Yearning for smth fake
&i look around
To see there's nth to take

I waited for all my life
Waiting for someone right
But all the wait was in vain
&i'll never see the light

But alas, who else can i blame?
I found myself, alone, standing
Empitness &darkness surround
&my heart's still bleeding

Time is a cruel one
It keeps ticking it's life away
Memories are evil ones
For they took away my days

Now my world seems dark
&my sunny days were gone
There're nights, but never sun
&i wonder when will i be re-born

Poem dated back: 5 June 2008

another sweetest escape
9:15 AM

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

I know this might not concern you as much
But i just thought you'd like to know
My feelings aren't the same anymore
Dont ask me, i dont exactly know

Cos i realised you're not the same
At least not as to what i have in mind
But i can't deny this fact
You're stil able to make things fine

But please no, i hope you'd know
You're definitely not everything
You do know that without you
I'm free like anything

Though i can't deny the fact
That my feeling's still around
Without you, everywhere's empty
Quiet, &without a sound

&i simply have to admit
That you're still in my heart, somewhere
&i do kinda wish i know
In your heart, how much do i fare

But nah, dont worry
I've got it straightened out
Cos i finally understand
This time clearly, without a doubt

For, where you're concern
There's standing place just for 'she'
This i understand
Cos i once had a 'he'

Dont worry, dear
I'll pull through (i think)
Maybe it isn't difficult
Not as tough like other things

For i know;
Broken wings will soar
Up, up higher than before.

Poem dated back: 4 June 2008

another sweetest escape
10:27 PM