AN ESCAPE FROM REALITY;

Friday, May 30, 2008

People out there
Fighting to keep their life
Indivuduals (like me) here
Trying to take a five

I dont know what's wrong
I dont know what's so screwed
All i know is
Things are just so crude

Reality comes
Slapping you across in the face
It caught you in a shock
Like you're still in a daze

People claim they'll always be there
That's what they said
But when the time comes
All their promises started to fade

But that's exactly what they said
'I'll always be here for you'
How can i ever, ever believe in it?
How can i be such a fool?

Cos nothing is reliable
Let alone say promises
Everthing seems superficial
This isnt just my own deductions

I loathe it, when i realised
Another paper promise made to me
But as much as i dislike it
I refused to set them free

I refused to open up
Cos i know nobody understands
If only someone would know
'Nobody' is not a friend

I wouldn't speak
&voice out my opinions
Cos bottling up seems like
A much better solution

Everything's fading
Into an ugly shade of blue
This harsh reality
Set me having flu

Poem dated back: 30 May 2008

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Monday, May 26, 2008

My feelings &emotions now, are in a mess
My inner thoughts, i find it hard to access
I feel that nothing is going right
&everything else, is what i have to fight
I feel that everything i had is slipping away
&i don't have strength to start another day

Where are those self-proclaim friends?
They weren't there. Wait, it doesn't make any sense
I thought friends are there for one another
Then why is it, no one exactly bother?

Where are the roots of all my emotions?
I'm confused. Sense my confusion
These feelings, i don't know who is responsible of
I thought it was you. I think my thoughts were off

Where are those soulmates, close to my heart
I thought they were ever-present, w/o any but
Where are those pals, buddies &company?
I thought we used to be like, family

What about those promises made to me?
Even thought they were paper promises, i refused to set them free

Is it me who is too stubborn &refused to change
I don't why why i'm staying. I've nth to gain
I know memories hold an impt place in me
To my heart, memories hold the key

I still don't know why are my feelings in a whirl
Everyone experiences this, especially girls
For we are the creatures, who think too much
These are just my feelings, just a little hunch

Poem dated back: 24 May 2008

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I cant believe, i'm feeling like this again
Just how many times, does it have to pain?
I can't wait til i give rid of these blues
Give me a hint, i cant find any clue

I want you to know that i feel for you
Thes emotions, these moods, i hate to feel
I wishyou know, that i'm always here
You always looking the other side, that's what i fear
I really do hope, you'll get to know this
Hah, this is endless, this very silly list

How come is it that you don't feel like i do?
'Cos of you, i'm ill, like i'm having flu
But sweets, you've got to stop for awhile
Don't worry, no refree would call this a foul

All i ever want, is for you to turn around
Just listen, &dont make any sound
There, can you hear &sense it?
It's the feelings for you, that i need to get rid

Although i've been acting like i don't care
Truth is: i want to know how much do i fare
Although i've been pretending that i don't feel
Truth is: my broken heart, i need to heal
Although i've been everything that i am not
Truth is: it's the true feelings which i fought

You were my motivation to start every new day
Then explain to me, why my world is now so grey

You were everythig that i lack in my life
Just like on a hand, fingers there are five

These confessions, i've been holding back
'Cos i know, you've nth that you lack
These feelings, i've been fighting to hide
'Cos i know, you wont bother to keep them in sight
These tears &sorrow, i've tried to contain
Give me some time, i'll ty to maintain sane

Poem dated back 24 May 2008

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Thursday, May 22, 2008

Sometimes i wonder
Why natural disaster take place
The world coming to an end
That's what we fear to face

They kept happening
As if fighting for the first
But they never knew
They cause hunger death &thirst

Oh dear, Mother Earth is ill!
Without any doctors bothering
Maybe there weren't any cures
or maybe they weren't caring

All the deaths we see on tv
They were innocent, weren't they?
Tell me how to save them
I'll meet you at the moonlight bay

Everyone seems to be bothered
Always there to lend a helping hand
But that's not enough at all
'Cos what's destroyed is their land

We might share their grief
But we're not in their shoes
We might understand their pain
But it's the family they lose

Sometimes i really wonder
What's wrong with Mother Earth?
I always thought we were children
Whom She had given birth

Then why destroyed us
&tear us apart?
Everytime a disaster happens
The one bleeding is the heart

Poem dated back: 21 May 2008

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9:06 AM

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Suddenly, my emotions &mood took a dive
After hearing your words, i feel that i could die
I feel disappointed, i feel upset
Why are things like this, this is bad

I feel like i just went to cut
&love is the opposition, which i fought
After the long, long abattle, verdict's out
I lost; that's what is simply about

All is wrong, &everything's screwed up
My heart was broken, i kept the pieces in a cup
I wander around aimlessly, searching for something
I started on my own, &i started to think

I thought about all the past, which had past
Those times flew by too soon, they went too fast
I need the scene to stop at that time
I need time to rewind, to make things fine

Right now, all i can hear is my heart breaking
All i can feel is my heart's bleeding
All i know is, i'm hurt yet once again
All i can do is, to wait for the pain to faint

No sweets, no. the fault doesn't lie with you
It's just like loan, &my feelings are due
The memories we had, will keep haunting me
I won't forget we were close, like noney &the bee

I won't forget your smile &grin
I won't throw them down the bin
I wouldn't trade them for the world or gold
To move on without you, that's my gal

Your words still haunt me &i bet they'll continue
But i know, no matter what things wont renew

All i have is my sensitivity to blame
My foolishness, that started this flame
But i need you to know that i'll always be here for you
'Cos the truth is my love do remains, it definitely do

Poem dated back: 18 May 2008

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9:54 AM

Friday, May 16, 2008

Too much pretence, too many masks
I'm stuggling, to complete every tasks
On the outside, i may be trying
But on the inside, i'm actually dying

My masks are what everyone sees
So happy &dilligent, like a bumble bee
But no, dont be deceive that that
I won't be alright, with a shoulder pat

There are so many feelings within me
No one bother asking, even though it's free
'Cos in my environment now, everything seems fake
No one to go to, no true friends to take

I miss my good ol' past thatwe all share
Those times, when we all truly care

Is everything around me chaning?
Or is it me, who's still staying?
I hate changes, i really do
Those strangers, they call me a fool!

but hey, no one really exactly bother
To them, i'm jsut a perfect stranger
I wanna drift in my own fanasty world
So goodbye, bad ol' cruel world

Poem dated back: 16 August 2007

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Thursday, May 15, 2008

It's so sad, but true
That all things will have to faint
In fact, the closer they are to your heart
Thet more it'll pain

Whether anot are they close
They don't matter alr, do they?
'Cos right now, all i know
Things are in an ugly shade of grey

I try holding on
Clinging on, with all the strength i have
But i failed 'cos time stole them all
Time is a theft

I know i haven been making effort to maintain
Though i try
But i need you to know
For you, i'll definitely fly

But then again
Nothing matters anymore
'Cos all of a sudden
Everything starts to fall

I went down to my knees
&try to pick thigns up
But things are gone
&i'm left with no more 'but'

Poem dated back: 20 April 2008

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Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Oh no, oh no. The (2.4)run's later on!
Oh nvm, soon it'll be gone!
Oh crap, oh crap. Skill A for prac is a killer!
Oh bummer, t's compulsory for A levels!
Oh shit, we have HER as the gp tutor!
Oh ya, no gp today, no HER (that monster)!
Oh boo, school's tiring &exhuasting!
Oh bother, without school, i can do anything!
Oh freak, i'm running out of things to write!
Oh hey, let's go out sometime to bike?
Oh here, this might just be the end.
Oh but promise, we'll always be friends!

Poem dated back: 15 April 2008

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2:32 PM

'Cos i blew it all away
But only for you, my love i'll lay

'Cos too late, you've turn went
But only for you, my love i'll send

'Cos too bad, i just aint the one
But boy without you, there's no fun

Poem dated back: 2 March 2008

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2:24 PM

I wanna scream &cry
Look the other way, i'll try
Leave you behind in my mind
&hope that things will be fine

But hey it's a little though
'Cos without you, journey's tough
What can't you see &feel?
My feelings are ~~dammit~~ real

Poem dated back: 20 Feburary 2008

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Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Training, we all went through as one
PT &footdrill, we all had fun
Through the sessions, i'm glad there were you
Now it's over, the competition's due
This final lap, we shall march with pride
&the silverware will be ours, after the fight

Poem dated back: 15 Feburary 2008

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1:21 PM

Who said lasting ones are only friends?
Who said GUESS is the only brand?
Who said close ones ae hard to find?
Cousins like us are, if you don't mind.

Thank you, for being michelle
One of the best, one ever shall
So here, happy 21st bday &enjoy
From today onwards, no more toys!
For you're no longer a kid, can't be naughty
Can only be fussy, like our aunty!

Poem dated back: 15 January 2008

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11:16 AM

Monday, May 12, 2008

I'm sorry; i'm sorry; i'm sorry
Saying these words, make me feel weary
Youre the shoulder i wanted to lean on
But you left, before the breaking dawn

You replaced my smile, with a frown
Your absence brought me all the way down

After you left, my whole world seems dark
It's so weird, like an ocean having a park
After you left, my whole world turns blue
&all day round, i've been having flu
After you left, my world became colourless
No more joy, happiness or gladness

All these haunting memories stuck in my mind
Pushed me to an edge, i wish i could die
Time spent with you is luxury
Your faace &smile stay printed in my galaxy

What really hurt is the truth that is true
Truth is: I love you, &i still do

Poem dated back: 26 June 2005

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2:01 PM

Baby i'm sorry, i didnt mean to hurt you
&to make you appear like one fool
I'm sorry to make you fall
I'm sorry for this invisible wall

I wish i could fall for you completely
But that previous love, had gotten me dizzy
I wish i coudl love again
ut to get him off, it's just too pain

I can't control the emotions anymore
It's my heart, thats feeling sore
'Cos dear i wish you could understand
I, too, wish we could go hand in hand

But somethings are just beyond our control
We can't fight it, just go with the flow
I wish we could face each other with gladness
No tears nor sorrow, just happiness

Trust me, we made the correct decision
In preventing the spread of this illusion
'Cos broken wings will soar
Up, up higher, then before

Dear, i wish you know how it is
When all i want, if for time to freeze
I wish you would treat me like a (normal) friend
One friend to walk with, til the very end

'Cos i'm willing to be your company
Walking together, with a melody
Let both of us keep thi love deep down within
Won't it be such a beautiful thing?
Let there be no more awkwardness
Just simple joy, not upsetness

Poem dated back: 18 November 2005

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12:42 PM

Because right now, to you
I'm nothing but a fool
Being left alone in that pouring rain
Wishing it could wash away the pain

But nah, it can't be that easy
'Cos this love, has gotten me dizzy
But this time, it's just not the same
&i only had, myself to blame
'Cos you're gone, for now &forever
Like s treasure, thrown back into the river

Perhaps this is the way life goes
Just like time passes, out comes a dying rose
I regretted, 'cos you slipped away
But trust me, i din want it this way

Did all way, &i've cried
All din work, or so i've tried

Thousand words can't bring you back
Now in my life, you're all i lack
To keep things going, i stayed strong
But for now, things still went wrong
The sorrow had filled my soul &heart
To get rid of it, it's just too hard

I'm sorry, cos i took you for granted
But this love, is a seed i've planted
I just never thought you would leave
'Cos i thought my shirt, you're the sleeve

We used to be so close, people see
Just like honey, &the bee
But then i supposed things all ended
&won't reply, like the movies i've rented

Poem dated back: 16 June 2005

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1:02 AM

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Hello friend, how do you do?
Reply me, don't make me look like a fool
Let's play scissors, paper, stone!
The loser will give up her phone

Oh no! Skill A for Biology!
So irritating, i hate low techology

C'mon, let's get out of class
&ignore those assigned tasks

Haha! I so heart poems like this!
Say you like, don't make me piss!

Poem dated back: 22 February 2008

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3:11 PM

Youre gone &wont return
Just like i took a terrible wrong turn

I can't get out, i'm really lost

But i know, love can't be forced

Go on, walk out of that door
Turn around, i don't need you to see me fall
I thought this love was everylasting
The truth is: i've got more to think

I'm sad; i'm disappointed
But wht should i so, when i'm all hurt

Baby, you know
Sometimes, it's really wrong
To turn &walk away so suddenly
Though you think it's over, like finally

'Cos there's still so much i don't understand
There're still things, you must explain
Nah, too late for me
You're alr gone, like the wind

The memories stayed in my heart
I want to forget, but it's jsut so hard
All these times, i've been under your wings
But now you left, like it's all just a fling

I've gotta adapt on my own
I've gotta rely on my own
Cos for now, i know
You, my baby, won't come home

I miss you; need you; want you
I don't mind, just call me a fool
You left saying, it's for my good
But you don't know, i wanna stick with you for good

I could turn around &walk away
But saying i dont love you, it's a no-no way

Poem dated back: 5 May 2005

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1:23 PM

So i guess, it was true
Love had treated me, like a fool
To make me love, someone so deep
Who could control, my heartbeat

Time spent together with you
Is simply what i call blissful
Perhaps we weren't meant to be
Or perhaps the girl, just wasn't me

Time flew, love fade
Like in water, away it wade

Days without you were tough
Journey with you were rough
But still, i knew i got to stay strong
'Cos baby i know, you won't come home

Wonderful times of the year
Blinded by the sorrow of my tears
I may struggle, i may ponder
But all my pain, never bring wonders

It's still so hard to believe
'Cos without you, baby i can't achieve

I wonder where you are
I wonder how you are
I know you've found your new 'her'
I wish you all the best with her

May your life be filled with happiness
&your future be filled with gladness
So with a note, i shall end
May we remain as forever friends

Poem dated back: 4 May 2005

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